I used to think that finding that perfect man in the middle of a million douchebags would be the hardest part of having a wedding. Because well the groom is kinda the most important part to every little girl's dream of her perfect dream wedding!
Yet here I am with the most perfect man in the world for me and still there are so many many many issues to deal with. It makes all those years of dealing with douchebags seem like a piece of cake.
Even though I have been planning my dream wedding since I was well um six. Maybe 3. My niece talks about her wedding all the time and she's 3 so maybe 3. Not because of the funds or my dream being to unrealistic but because it does not work for other people. I have been the big person about it. Or at least that's what my Brian says all the time. "You're the one being the bigger person, that's good don't be sad".
So after I accepted that I won't get my dream. I moved on. I was a big girl. I went to plan...well "B". But know there was never a plan "B" to plan "dream".
Now here I am compromising my only day. my only day to be special. to have all eyes on me. to have that moment where I feel amazingly beautiful. To have that moment where all I can feel is love from everyone and to be able to see all the love and passion in the eyes of my Brian waiting at the end for me.
And, yes, I know I will have all that regardless of where my wedding may be. And I am actually getting a little excited about plan "B" or what I refer to as plan maybe.
I just wish I didn't have to share my wedding with anyone but my Brian. And yes, we have thought about running away and doing it all alone. But I am deadly afraid my mother would crucify me.
But really. That would be ideal. Weddings are ridiculous! All of sudden you have to have split your beloved family and friends into "A" and "B" categories. Who's more important than who kinda thing...that makes my heart sad. And wedding party drama sheesh!
"all your brothers have to be included"
"you cant have here and not your other nieces"
"well i get to walk you down the isle"
"dad has to he's coming all the way from mexico"
"your bestfriend is your maid of honor, what about your sisters"
Please excuse me while I grab my lover and run off to Vegas. Enjoy your wedding!
(this was done in our mock engagement picture night)